flashbacks

I remember now...

why i dont drink...

green apple anything is my weakness

and i remember now, why i dont drink...

I dont understand, if this is what being buzzed, tipsy, drunk etc feels like

WHY DO PEOPLE DO IT?!

I dont understand

this is not a good feeling

cant even eat the peanut butter sandwich i made to soak up the alcohol

cause you know, whenever i drink its usually on an empty stomach

and of course, isiah made the mix, so it was strong, and i had to drink the whole cup in like 10 min

so it just went straight to my head. 

trust me, its been hard to type this post, cause my world is on its ass cause im such a friggin lightweight. 

But, I am proud to be a lightweight. It means i didnt give into the peer pressure of partying, drinking and smoking my last highschool and first years of college away. 

This is the most ive drank since senior week

man, i keep having flashbacks

this is how i started feeling that night at SR week before i almost friggin died. 

(ok, maybe i didnt almost die, but i would have rather died then felt the way i did)

smh

momma said once that shes allergic to certain alcohols

or something like allergic. It effects her in a bad way

So ima assume im the same way, cause everytime i drink vodka, i want to die. 

so lemme just not. 

ever

again

and i swear if one more person asks me to drink with them

ima blast them into next wekk. 

and i DARE someone to make fun of me. Ima give them a concussion and spin them around 100 times and ask them how they feel

then tell them thats about the equivilant to what i feel when i drink even a lil bit.

so suck my dick bitch.