Envy

Yea, I know, Its a deadly sin...

But i cant help the way I feel. 

I cant help being so overwhelming jealous of everything Eva has...

She's getting everything Ive always wanted. 

~A good man

~A good looking man at that

~That treats her like a friggin queen

~That acknowledges all of her flaws and loves her through them

~Hes military... Army

~He hasnt done anything blatantly retarded to fuck up his career... at least not yet

~Hes paying for her to go to school

~Taking her away from here (ok, granted, its to MO.. but STILL)

~Hes loving and supportive, no matter how small her problem might be

What I cant stand... is that Ive wanted all the above for YEARS. 

How is it... why is it... that everyone around me is getting everything that I want? 

Getting married, going to school, havin babies

Its not fair. 

I know what I want my life to be...

So i dont understand why i gotta be the one to wait for it....

Its.

So.

Gay.

So im gonna play Jagged Edge all day

and daydream about a distant future. 

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