Only Get High When My Lows Come Often

Days like today make me think of drastic things. 

Today hurts me. 

Not just because its the 10th ann. of 9/11

even though i am saddened by the memory. 

But because Keenan is half way around the world by now. 

My best friend. It hurts me. 

I love him too much. 

Niko has been gone for a month. 

a month. 

Im still gripping him being gone

let alone realizing that hes been gone for 4 weeks. 

On top of being empathetic and sympathetic to all that have suffered because of 9/11

One top of having dreampt about Maurel

And i miss him so much. 

And missing one person makes me miss another person

and its a chain reaction...

Im so tired.